Several
years ago, a good friend was going through a nasty divorce. She was depressed
and angry. My marriage stunk and then my husband left me. I was depressed and
angry. We would get together and talk about our current obsession, Celtic
Thunder (and Irish man-band, don’t judge!) and dream of taking a trip to Ireland.
Ireland
seems like a magic place. All the men are handsome, and when they talk, they
sound like they sing everything they say. It’s always green, the people are
kind and they like potatoes. What could be better?
I was in
the Eddie Bauer Outlet one day when I came upon a cute little travel tool. It
had a flashlight, an emergency strobe light, and a travel clock with alarm. You
would twist the top and it would show the time of the city you chose. I bought
two, set the city for Dublin, and gave one to my friend. It was a symbol of
hope. Someday, life would be better, and we would go to Ireland. We would use
our travel clocks!
Somehow,
the alarm on mine got set for 10:00. I couldn’t figure out how to turn it off!
Eventually it got annoying so I stuck it in a cupboard under a pile of towels.
This morning as I stood in my bathroom putting on my makeup, that alarm went
off. Apparently its been going off every day for the past three or four years.
Immediately a flood of emotions hit me between my half-mascaraed eyes. Longing for a
place I’d never seen. Sadness for a friend who has since moved far away. Hope
that things would someday be better. Humor, laughing at an alarm that has been
set for a time that means nothing, and isn’t needed.
And yet it
was needed. I’m at a bit of a low place right now. I needed to be reminded of
my friend, who loves me. I needed to be reminded of that hope that things will
someday be better. I needed to be reminded of a Friend who loves me, and of
that place far away that I view with longing.
“I remember my
affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and I therefore I
have hope: because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his
compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your
faithfulness.”
Lamentations
3:19-23
In the
midst of the stuff of life, we have hope. God has not forgotten us. He are not
consumed.
We all need
travel alarms, those little insignificant items that remind us of God’s
faithfulness, of his love for us, and of the beautiful place that awaits us. I
have a longing for a place I have never seen, but is my home.
“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we
eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power
that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our
lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.”
Philippians 3:20-21
My travel
alarm is now sitting out on my kitchen windowsill, reminding me of the good
that God intends for me. What reminds you of the goodness of God? What brings
your flagging spirit hope? Hold on to those things. Put them where you can see
them. Practice smiling at them, and be grateful that God is present.
April, dear friend! Thank you for faithfully sharing your heart and the hear of God even in the midst of raw life and painful, difficult experiences. I think that's what gives it so much power! I love you dearly and am grateful for the way that God has brought you into our family's lives and mine specifically!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you're feeling down and I know it doesn't help to say things like "everybody gets overwhelmed or depressed at one time or another" even though those things are true. The one thing that is always the hardest for me when I feel depressed but is absolutely necessary is to look for the joy in the smallest of things, claim the joy and make it my own declaration of the power of good over evil. The devil has no power over the joy of Jesus. Thanks for sharing as that alarm clock brought humor to those of us who love you.
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